A Guru

18 May

Sel realization is not very cheap. at the time when you are making mistakes one after the other you need someone,
a solid man of self-belief and discipline to hold you and take out of that gut you are in.
Someone who can introduce discipline, integrity and some principles in your life.
Writing the word Introduce would still leave some scope for dependence for you.
You might think of it as a wait for one such person to come into your life.
The correct or the closest word can be “Induce”. Someone who can induce this in you.
Nobody can be cited as an exact example of the realized one but that one person would have an aura(forgive me for the spirituality)
Everything done by him or with his guidance would seem right. comfort would have his own subtle contentedness.
All this would be bequeathed upon you on its own.
I guess he is what they call a GURU


A Child’s smile

14 Aug

What was that or for the matter of fact I wonder what is it that makes me do this. I am walking or doing something and suddenly I do these of which I guess my future self would be proud of.

Being given some work, I had to stay back in the office and had to walk the 1 km stretch alone to the metro station. I put on my favourite tracks and left the office and all lost in the music was about to reach the metro when suddenly at about 10:30 in the night I saw these bunch of kids playing on this only parked scooter on one side of the road. There was something, some may call it inspiration while it may be some invincible force which drew me towards them. Whatever it was I stopped and took a pic of this kid and then started talking to him. We had barely exchanged a sentence or two but were interrupted by his younger siblings voice who was rushing towards us saying that he also wanted his photo to be clicked. Obliging him I made him sit on the scooter and clicked the pic. Suddenly there is this shy kid who is standing on the side since the episode started, also came forward and requested that he also be in one of the pics and being more than happy to do this, I clicked his pic as wel  with the rest of the two.

Running like mad dog to represent a burden we call “life” which is usually full of woes incidents like these are actually refreshing and make you realize one thing that not much is needed. It is we who always create a fuzz of things we want, or things we should have running and running this mad race in order to have more on the plate than the other guy. it might take us to so called new level or a new height but it keeps us devoid of that purity that we have in us, that innocence that we all have in us.

Look at yourself, were you not always that happy and cheerful when you were like him a tension free child who really never gave a shit. I just wonder what changed or kept on leaking from us as we grew up. I have seen it in me and it was life as we should have known it to life as we were told.

Many people have indeed taken great pains in setting out the life map for us and very politely we have accepted it too. I mean that’s the problem that we never tried to figure it out ourselves cos that would have meant a lot of courage, a lot of actions and most importantly it would have required us to come out of this useless and highly fake comfort zone. and many of us could have done that had “the right things” were not being preached and fitted into our minds since our childhood.

A small two minute interaction with this child made me realize all this. How? Cos maybe the smile and the laughter along with happiness that he had was far more valuable and precious than what I portray to have at least 50 times a day. The child was content in what he was doing and no object or things could have changed that for him. Actually he did not care about me or the photo I was taking or for that matter he didn’t care about anyone.  At times we let many people, notions and beliefs interfere with what we are doing or we want to do and what happens is that the things gets either stalled for the future or goes into the cold box, only to be remembered in the future. Incidents like this make me realize that there is a lot to me rather than just running blindly to become a part of these thousand year old traditions.

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Every man for his own.

19 Jul

If it has a lot of obligations,is situational, has a lot of expectations and depends on the mood then out of everything be sure of one thing, it wont last for long. You may enjoy it now, be immersed in it and dive in in with what all u v got bt there ll b a time when u ll realize that it ws not worth it.
All the promises, the commitments no matter how honest with them, share it with a wrong person n u ll land deeper in the pit.(donn worry, everyone will fall in it eventually).
  Its totally on u to decide(u ll have to anyway) as to what seed u want to sprout in your life. One full of insecurities,doubts,lack of faith, vch gvs u even more demons to fight with or a seed which ll take you somewhere else along with itself whr u can actually b at home n d foremost where u hv lesser n lesser demons to fight. i can just imagine bt im sure there ll b a time when dr r no demons left to fight cos without u knowing u transformed.

Observe yourself in your relationships.

3 Jul

If u really want to know about yourself and want to see how corrupt and rotten you are, just observe yourself in relation to your relationships. Just observe yourself being jealous,insecure,possessive and you will have a direct confrontation wd urself and u ll know that u do not have any right to be in love with anyone coz d love u know of, it stinks.

to fight

9 Jun

St augustine once said “an unjust law is no law at all” so to fight unequality i have two options violence and civil disobidience. You should pray i choose the latter.
-James farmer jr. (The great debaters)


Be useless !!

26 May

The more useful you are to the world,the more fucked up your life will be and the people around you will have more and more reasons to exploit you. So be as useless as possible.

What makes me who i am..?

9 May

I have been a lot of situations throughout my life. Some left an everlasting impact while others were left unattended like a just another situation.
Was playing tt with a senior today. Being a beginner

Escapism-The more you run, then more you get into the pit !!

6 May
We often feel frustrated and irritated at a series of events that happen in our life and as a result keep us haunted and disturbed.
     And generally we spend the coming time in repairing  and mending the so called past.We take certain actions and take measures so that the things can be completed and there is no disturbance whatsoever.
     I was able to understand this thing when i was about to start writing this piece(As i had promised myself that i will write one article and each day and had not written one in a long time so i just sat down and decided to write something no matter what). Before that the mind was filled with all sorts of thought a such as why and what to write but then i realized that it is nothing but completing the work that i had left unattended in the past and as 
1. i escaped from that situation that time and as a result i have have to refrain myself from doing what is expected of me in this moment.
2. And also The sanctity of this moment is all lost when i am still trying to cover for the past.
    Now i can see that how it also leads to having complaints in life and as a result there is this lagging behind which eventually takes you deeper into this pit(which we talked about in the gyan session).
i have been able to see that escaping from anything now in this moment will further make me a bigger escapist in the coming time as i will escape from the demands of the situation of that moment and thus a cycle will be formed which will always obstruct me from dedicating myself to the right and the just thing
                                                                                      Escaping = No Excellence = Forever Mediocre
Escapism means that first of all I am escaping from the moment and find ways to postpone what ever i am supposed to do. Secondly even if i do it, it will be just for the sake for the completion of the work and hence it will be a product of a sheer mediocre mind with no hint of excellence in it because excellence is only there when i am totally immersed in the present moment irrespective of any speculation or contemplation.
     So now one by one i am finishing what ever was left incomplete in the past(which was one of the major causes  of disturbance) one by one so that from now onwards whatever i do, i do with my full creativity and also to ensure that i can be totally free of the past burdens.

The Media !! are they really fearless ?

4 May

A few days back there was no news regarding sarabjeet on any channel(except the occasional coverage based on his sisters attempt to set him free) but suddenly he was attacked by inmates and died in an unfortunate chain of events and tries to save him.
All the media suddenly gets charged up and covers this like anything including how he was framed and got brutal suffering in that paki jail.

Dear Media(and also the government)

where were you in the last 22 years he was there in that same very jail getting torture for something he dint do ?

Where were you when his sister knocked every door possible requesting a fair trial on his brother and still there was no progress whatsoever ?

Inspite of meeting the kin and shedding tears you could have done something much better i,e efforts to get him out !!

Things like this raise a question in my head as in that is the media(and offcourse the government who pays them) of todays world really living upto the standards it gotta be or its just a big bad fight of being the number one in the TRP list and luring more and more people to watch their channel ??????Image

Can i be Attentive enough ?

2 May

Every now and then i hear people talking of being so careful  and learning from their own actions and decisions etc. or being so observant in life that they will get things on their own.I have been with a bunch of people who always warn me of this and help me every now and then but giving me a reality check. Yesterday was yet another experience for me. I had decided to complete a few works before i finally lay off to sleep such as reading a portion of the book, complete some office works (which was a bit time consuming) and other chores. I reached home had dinner and decided to start off with the things after a 5 min break and decided to watch a sneek peak on a movie but in the course of time i got so involved in it and ended up watching up the movie. It was not so late after that also but had i been attentive towards the work i would have finished it then also

But involved in many thoughts and acting according to that i made a lot of plans for the completion of the work and eventually escaping from that situation which demanded my attention and efforts. A result of which was that i wasted more time before i fell of to sleep in getting frustrated and irritated on myself for being so careless before i finally got up and decided to do what ever was required of me.Even though it took a lot of sankalp but I made efforts to complete all the tasks that i had decided to accomplish.the best part of which was that i could now sleep peacefully without any pressure or tension in me. 

From this incident i learnt that it is always the thoughts that make you do anything and at the same time take you far away from what you ought to do.It is entirely on the person to decide that what does he allow to be an input to the mind. Either he can be careless(like i was earlier) and let things take up their own accord without making any efforts of his own and stay there complaining or he can be active and aware to make efforts now in this moment apart from any imagination no matter how intense they may be.Then only can something happen or else the life i am living will always be the same without any hope of a bit of change in it.