A Guru

18 May

Sel realization is not very cheap. at the time when you are making mistakes one after the other you need someone,
a solid man of self-belief and discipline to hold you and take out of that gut you are in.
Someone who can introduce discipline, integrity and some principles in your life.
Writing the word Introduce would still leave some scope for dependence for you.
You might think of it as a wait for one such person to come into your life.
The correct or the closest word can be “Induce”. Someone who can induce this in you.
Nobody can be cited as an exact example of the realized one but that one person would have an aura(forgive me for the spirituality)
Everything done by him or with his guidance would seem right. comfort would have his own subtle contentedness.
All this would be bequeathed upon you on its own.
I guess he is what they call a GURU

A Child’s smile

14 Aug

What was that or for the matter of fact I wonder what is it that makes me do this. I am walking or doing something and suddenly I do these of which I guess my future self would be proud of.

Being given some work, I had to stay back in the office and had to walk the 1 km stretch alone to the metro station. I put on my favourite tracks and left the office and all lost in the music was about to reach the metro when suddenly at about 10:30 in the night I saw these bunch of kids playing on this only parked scooter on one side of the road. There was something, some may call it inspiration while it may be some invincible force which drew me towards them. Whatever it was I stopped and took a pic of this kid and then started talking to him. We had barely exchanged a sentence or two but were interrupted by his younger siblings voice who was rushing towards us saying that he also wanted his photo to be clicked. Obliging him I made him sit on the scooter and clicked the pic. Suddenly there is this shy kid who is standing on the side since the episode started, also came forward and requested that he also be in one of the pics and being more than happy to do this, I clicked his pic as wel  with the rest of the two.

Running like mad dog to represent a burden we call “life” which is usually full of woes incidents like these are actually refreshing and make you realize one thing that not much is needed. It is we who always create a fuzz of things we want, or things we should have running and running this mad race in order to have more on the plate than the other guy. it might take us to so called new level or a new height but it keeps us devoid of that purity that we have in us, that innocence that we all have in us.

Look at yourself, were you not always that happy and cheerful when you were like him a tension free child who really never gave a shit. I just wonder what changed or kept on leaking from us as we grew up. I have seen it in me and it was life as we should have known it to life as we were told.

Many people have indeed taken great pains in setting out the life map for us and very politely we have accepted it too. I mean that’s the problem that we never tried to figure it out ourselves cos that would have meant a lot of courage, a lot of actions and most importantly it would have required us to come out of this useless and highly fake comfort zone. and many of us could have done that had “the right things” were not being preached and fitted into our minds since our childhood.

A small two minute interaction with this child made me realize all this. How? Cos maybe the smile and the laughter along with happiness that he had was far more valuable and precious than what I portray to have at least 50 times a day. The child was content in what he was doing and no object or things could have changed that for him. Actually he did not care about me or the photo I was taking or for that matter he didn’t care about anyone.  At times we let many people, notions and beliefs interfere with what we are doing or we want to do and what happens is that the things gets either stalled for the future or goes into the cold box, only to be remembered in the future. Incidents like this make me realize that there is a lot to me rather than just running blindly to become a part of these thousand year old traditions.

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Every man for his own.

19 Jul

If it has a lot of obligations,is situational, has a lot of expectations and depends on the mood then out of everything be sure of one thing, it wont last for long. You may enjoy it now, be immersed in it and dive in in with what all u v got bt there ll b a time when u ll realize that it ws not worth it.
All the promises, the commitments no matter how honest with them, share it with a wrong person n u ll land deeper in the pit.(donn worry, everyone will fall in it eventually).
  Its totally on u to decide(u ll have to anyway) as to what seed u want to sprout in your life. One full of insecurities,doubts,lack of faith, vch gvs u even more demons to fight with or a seed which ll take you somewhere else along with itself whr u can actually b at home n d foremost where u hv lesser n lesser demons to fight. i can just imagine bt im sure there ll b a time when dr r no demons left to fight cos without u knowing u transformed.

Observe yourself in your relationships.

3 Jul

If u really want to know about yourself and want to see how corrupt and rotten you are, just observe yourself in relation to your relationships. Just observe yourself being jealous,insecure,possessive and you will have a direct confrontation wd urself and u ll know that u do not have any right to be in love with anyone coz d love u know of, it stinks.

to fight

9 Jun

St augustine once said “an unjust law is no law at all” so to fight unequality i have two options violence and civil disobidience. You should pray i choose the latter.
-James farmer jr. (The great debaters)


Be useless !!

26 May

The more useful you are to the world,the more fucked up your life will be and the people around you will have more and more reasons to exploit you. So be as useless as possible.

What makes me who i am..?

9 May

I have been a lot of situations throughout my life. Some left an everlasting impact while others were left unattended like a just another situation.
Was playing tt with a senior today. Being a beginner